Si me enamor de ti....

If I fell in love with you...
If I fell in love with you

Would you promise to be

true

And help me understand'

cause I've been in love before

And I found that love was more

Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you

I must be sure

From the very start

That you would love me more than her

If I trust in you oh please

Don't run and hide

If I love you too

oh please

Don't hurt my pride like her'

cause I couldn't stand the pain

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that

I Would love to love you

And that she will cry

When she learns we are two

If I fell in love with you

Voice of an Abused Child...

The Clothes Line Project.

Today I had the opportunity to go to the Clothes Line Project on our Campus.

We were able to write messages on either white, pink, or purple T-Shirts that had to do with domestic abuse, child abuse, and violence.

I wanted to choose a pink T-Shirt, except there were none left. So i choose a purple T-Shirt, even though in the picture it looks purple. lol

We were then instructed to write anything that we wanted on the T-Shirt, there were examples of messages and statistics we could use.

I choose to write "For the Children whose VOICES aren't HEARD".

As you can see there is a hand on the T-Shirt, my hand. This may not have meaning to you but it has meaning to me.

I was once that voice of a child that was not heard or did not know how to speak about the abuse.

I think about all those children who have been abuse and/or are being abuse at this moment. . . the vulnerability, innocence, and strength of this child.

I came out of that event wanting to cry and yell to the world.
Why do we let these things happen?
Why was I hurt?
Why does he get no punishment for what he did?
Are his daughters safe from him?

Oh Dear Lord,
Protect these children who are being hurt and have been hurt.
Give them the strength to speak up.
Heal them from their pain.
Love them till no end.
Amen.

What is Beauty???

Querida Mami,

No te quiero lastimar pero esto es lo que siento....

Yo se que me quieres ayudar y que te sientes responsable.

Pero este es mi cuerpo!

Te agradesco tu preocupasion.

Yo se que mi peso es algo que te preocupa pero es una preocupasion que es mia.

Te dire algo,

Con todo lo que me has dicho y las miradas que me das siento que estas avergonsada de mi. Y saves me duele pero lo acepto.

Cuando ustedes me dicen cosas solo me hacen ir contra lo que me dicen.

Toda mi vida eh escuchado que me dicen "estas bonita PERO pudieras estar mas bonita si perdieras un poco de peso"

Lo que me tu me estas diciendo es para ser bonita tengo que estar delgada?

Tu me dijiste:
"Que no podria obtener un trabajo por mi peso" pues entonces me saldre de la escuela para que me ponga delgada y haci tendre un trabajo porque todo mi esfuerzo no vale nada.

No se si te acuerdas que te dije esto una vez....
La unica forma que una person cambia es cuando sale de la persona.
Cuando otras empujan a la persona a cambiar, esa persona no quiere cambiar.

Haci que yo te digo....
Deja me en paz. Para poder juzgarme, tienes que juzgarte a ti misma primero.  Si necesito tu ayuda te dire.

Gracias por  escucharme y por apollo.


Oh y YO estoy MUY Contenta siendo quien soy. Perdiendo peso no tiene nada que ver en felizidad.

MI FAMILIA....

MI FAMILIA....

I miss them soooo much!!

This is really weird to me, last summer I was happy to leave home. This summer it was a struggle for me to leave. I was enjoying my time at home.

For some reason today, I cried my eyes out.

I was trying to take a nap and I was half asleep half awake when I started to day dream about...when my family goes to california...what if they get in an accident and they DIE???

At first I couldnt believe that but then I started to think more and more ane more about it and....I lead myself on and I started crying so much.

My mom...has been a blessing in it self! I love her soo much! I worked with her this whole summer, at first I got annoyed but then I started to have fun and enjoyed her company. It gave us a chance to catch up since I was gone for at least a year.

My Dad...he is what hold me together. He has made me who I am. Even though we may argue and disagree but I luv him very much. He is the base of my tree. With out him I would be nothing. He gave me my stregnth, faith, and wisdom!!

My Brother...he is my side kick!! We grew up together..until my sister came along. lol. I know he may seem quite at times but he is the loudest, craziest, and funniest person I know. I hope he knows I want the best for him and love him no matter what!!

My Sister...she is a baby bratt!! I luv her though! We may not get along most of the time but I love her. She makes me laugh, she wants to be soo grown up and act like a young women and hang out with my friends. I get mad at her because of that but deep down I smile and laugh because all she wants is to be like me. She is my small inspiration to do great things in life! I want her to know her big sister is a fighter and that she can do anything she sets her mind to!!

My family is my life! The older Im getting the more my family means to me.

It would hurt to much to lose my family! I dont know if I could live with out them. I know its not real but, for some reason Ive dreamed about "death" twice now. I dont know if it means anything but in the end ....

I LOVE AND ADORE MY FAMILY!!!!

God, bless my parents and silbings. May you guide them on a safe path!

Luv,
Sandra...

A Wonderful Night....

Dear God,

I want to say Thank you for everything. Today was a success. I am so thankful that everything turned out well. I really don't know how to express what i feel. I am so overwhelmed by the gratitude and love that i feel.
Thank you for always being there for me. You helped me accomplish this great event. The feeling of knowing that so many people have been touched by this event and that I have made history....I have made history.

THis feeling is indescribable. I have people who surround me who love and are always helping me and so encouraging.; John, Sra. Leticia, Paulina, Cholee....so many others. The fact that people even came up to me to tell me that they want to help me plan it next year.

Oh God, this is something that I feel so accomplished and thankful that I have been able to do this for so many people. I luv you more then anything. This semester has been incredible, INCREDIBLE!!

I know now that I have made the right choice about staying here at Saint Martin's.

I know that you will be there in every step of the way.

Thank you Daddy Dear...

Love,
Your daughter Sandra.

P.S: I also want to ask for your guidance. There are people who I dont feel are being good friends to me and I would appreciate your guidance and how to treat them.

I LIVE TO BRING YOU PRAISE!!!!!!!!!

Catholic Fire: St. Veronica Giuliani, Mystic, Stigmatist

Catholic Fire: St. Veronica Giuliani, Mystic, Stigmatist

My Inspirations...

Proffessor John Hopkins

AND

Dr. Leticia Nieto

Became two great people in my life this year.

I dont know where I would be with out them.

These two people are just AMAZING.

I am so LUCKY that they have become part of my life.

So far this semester, has been the biggest growing experience.

With their help I have learned so much about myself and the world.

John Hopkins is a very philosophical man. He has a great Mind and the Strongest most Sweetest HEART too. He is a great Mentor, Proffesor, and Friend.

Dr. Leticia Nieto, is the best Mentor I could ask for. She is such a strong Latina women. I aspire to be like her some day.

I am going to miss both of them when I leave for Vancouver. However, I hope they know that they have impacted my life in such a positive way. Saint Martin's is very lucky to have these people.

I am blessed with these great people :)